The Perfect Summer Day

Yesterday was the Fourth of July; our flag was proudly flying in the wind in front of our house, the sun was shining, and the heat was on! 

Rayleigh's dad had to work a little in the morning, so Bug and I lounged in bed and watched cartoons for a little bit and then went to the backyard to read and enjoy the beginning of what would be a wonderful day! 

Mommy & Bug Backyard Selfie :) 

Next, because of a seizure, Rayleigh took a nice nap in the cool air conditioning. When she woke up we headed to the mall for an afternoon movie! This was sort of spur of the moment, but our girl was in a great mood and I've been wanting to try the movie theater again. We've only taken Bug to the theater once and it was a disaster! We took her to a very early showtime of Despicable Me 2 for a sensory show - and being in withdrawal from weaning a medicine she was cranky and miserable and just wanted to be home, so we left about 30 minutes into the movie. But that was a couple of years ago and she has been having some really good days so we thought LET'S TRY! 

And we are SO GLAD we did!! She loved it, y'all! We went to see Inside Out! The theater we chose has the wide recliner seats and we were able to get 2 spots and wheelchair spot. Rayleigh watched the first bit in her wheelchair and then snuggled up with her blanket on my lap and we raised the armrest so she could be close to her dada, too! We did her afternoon tube feeding right there, easy peasy. Goodness, I'm still so proud of her, and so happy she was able to enjoy the movie!!! 

Movie Theater Selfie!

We went over to her grandparents' house after the movie for dinner and some swimming! 

We sent Daddy for sunglasses after her snapped a picture! hehe!

Then, of course, fireworks!! We went to a park in a nearby city where loads of people go to pop off their own fireworks! Rayleigh managed to stay awake long enough to watch her dad and Gpa shoot off some pretty ones, but then she fell asleep snuggled on my lap. Her awesome Lovie sat in the air conditioned van with her to finish watching the boys. 
Sorry I didn't take more pictures, I notice at the end of a fun day that I don't take very many pictures of those moments we had - I was so busy living life and enjoying the moment that I forgot to whip out my phone and snap a quick picture to remind me of the fun we had! I'll work on getting better, haha!

I am just soo thankful that Rayleigh got to enjoy the holiday! Today, she is making up for all of that spent energy with a big long nap (hence the time for this update!). 

I've Been... Busy.

I know, many think that is a lame excuse. Heck, I used to think so, too. But is absolutely the truth. 

I think all moms, whether they are special needs moms, stay at home moms, working moms, moms of 7 boys or moms of 1 precious little girl, are always doing something. No, make that women in general. I saw last week on The Doctors that women are less likely to make time to do hobbies, take a bubble bath, or relax in front of the television because women feel the constant need to accomplish something to get ahead, to tick off the checklist. I don't know for sure if every women feels that but I can tell you that that describes me.

For me, there is rarely "spare time". From the moment I wake up I am taking care of something. Today was a treat, I enjoyed lunch and a quick shopping trip with my sister-in-law. It was much needed! But most days, when I drop Bug off at school I head to the pharmacy to pick up a prescription, or go buy baby food, call doctors or insurance companies, or come home and work on CutieBug party decorations. I will admit, my life is very routine. That's the way we need it. I don't think anything would get done if it wasn't so routine, so predictable.

Anyway, my biggest excuse is that if I have time to sit down and write a blog post then I should use that time to work on party decorations, or do some in-home therapy with Bugaboo. So, I compromised. I have Buggie snuggled up in the blanket on the couch next to me while I do this post before her dinner.

So here's a quick breakdown of the recent months: Bug's seizures are not controlled. She is having anywhere from 5-15 a day. It really varies. In the last week she hasn't had more than 10 a day. We did a VNS adjustment last month, same strength but pulsing more often. That helped a little but not a lot so almost 3 weeks ago we increased her Vimpat medicine by a half a pill. She went through her usual adjustment period, still kind of going through it actually, messed up sleeping pattern, random-seeming mood swings, all that jazz. But the seizures are going down so we will stick with it a bit longer and see what's really going on. 

I'll try and post again shortly. I'll just add it into my routine ;) 

My Daughter, A Student

That's right, little Miss Rayleigh Bug is officially a student!!


She is part of the 3 year old program, Head Start and goes to an elementary school in the special needs 3 year old class.

We were fortunate enough to tour the school and meet her teacher before we started the enrollment process and I must say, everything just felt right. You know, that mommy feeling that just gives you peace that this will be a good thing! A week before her first day of school we got to meet with the teacher, teacher's aid, physical therapist, occupational therapist, speech therapist, and vision specialist for a sit-down evaluation. Bug's OT from SoonerStart also attended this meeting to help give the team an outside perspective of what it is like working with Bug.

Buggie has now been in school for a full month and she is doing FANTASTIC at school!!

Bug with her first school project! She did hand-over-hand to decorate her Easter basket!

Her Easter basket came home with eggs filled with marshmallow candies that she loved!

I must admit, I was a little nervous at first. More excited for Bug, but still nervous at the same time. All moms, probably all parents in general, have that initial pang of nerves when it comes to putting your child in someone else's care but I think there's a whole new level to that when your child requires special care. Especially when they need as much care as Rayleigh. She is the only student in her afternoon class that needs her wheelchair. She is the only one that cannot sit, stand or walk independently but she is not the first student that the teacher and team have had in her situation. I feel confident that Rayleigh is in more than qualified, able hands when I drop her off at school. They have really come to know Rayleigh Bug and I think she's really meshing well there!

My most favorite part is dropping her off and picking her up - she has other kids around her almost every time excited to see her and to help push her chair in or out of the school doors (along with a member of her school team of course!).

Oh, my other most favorite part (hehe!) is hearing her daily report at the end of her day when I pick her up. Her teacher even shows pictures of Bug and what she did that day occasionally. These few minutes at the end of each day are so important to me because I don't get that moment that other parents get, that moment where you ask your child "How was school today?" or "Did you do anything fun at school?" or anything like that. It warms my heart that her teacher or any member of the team that brings her out takes that time to tell me how Rayleigh did!

Bug on her first day of school!

She is thriving and I couldn't be more proud of my little Bug!!

Rayleigh's Year in Numbers

I thought it might be a neat idea to gather some numbers from Bug's year to wrap up 2012. I keep everything down in my calendar and keep a seizure journal that includes every seizure, bad day, sick day, medicine change, etc. So as I'm going back through these books there are some sad moments. I'm realizing that while most moms are driving their children to a park, I am driving Rayleigh to physical therapy. Or while other moms drive their kids to a playdate, I am driving Rayleigh to a doctor appointment. But I will keep on keeping on because all of those things are to help my sweet Bug! And that is exactly what we'll spend 2013 doing, and every year after this!

So, here are some figures from 2012.

• 8 Neurologist visits
• 2 Epileptologist visits
• 7 Pedatrician visits
• 2 Neuro-opthomologist visits (eye surgeon/doctor that also specializes in the brain)
• 2 Hearing tests - passed both!
• 4 Trips to the ER :(
• 2 EEGs
• 1 ERG (eye test done with probs on eyeballs while sedated)
• 44 Physical Therapies at Jim Thorpe
• 35 Occupational Therapies at Jim Thorpe
• 42 In-Home Occupational Therapies with SoonerStart
• 9 In-Home Vision Therapies with SoonerStart
• 7 In-Home Visits from OPAT
• 9 Months on the Ketogenic Diet (plus several months in 2011)
• 365 Doses of Melatonin
• 31 Medicine and/or Dose Changes
• 1 Surgery - to put in the Vagus Nerve Stimulator
• 812 Seizures - approximately - including Tonic, Partial Onset and Absent
• 1 DIAGNOSIS OF CDKL5
• 43 Sunday Suppers with the grandparents!
• 8 Trips to the Zoo
• 3 Family Photo Sessions
• 6 Seizure Free Days
• 1billion hugs and kisses :)

So there you have it, our year in a nutshell. Looks crazy all down in numbers and puts it all in perspective to me - gosh, it was an exhausting but fun year and there's another one ahead of us now!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!