Whirlwind of 2 Weeks

Nope. No diagnosis results yet. Just filling my time until it arrives in the mail. I've literally been checking the mailbox several times a day. I even check it again once after I've collected the delivered mail just in case I missed it earlier or maybe a different mailman brought it later. Logically I know it's not the case but I can't help it, I want the results yesterday!

Anyway, last week was pretty bad and kept me on my toes. Rayleigh Bug had gastritis again. She was throwing up at least once a day and her burps smelled like acid. We saw her pediatrician and she told us to give Bug 2 Prevacid a day instead of just one for the rest of week to control the acids. This helped almost instantly but then over the weekend we tried to go back to just 1 Prevacid like she said and the acid burps came back and then last night a little spit up so we're doing 2 Prevacid today. I'm waiting to hear back from her dietitian to see if we can go down on her Ketogenic Diet ratio to 3.75:1 or 3.5:1. She is currently on the highest ratio of 4:1. For those of you not familiar with the diet, the ratio means 4 times the amount of fat over the amount of carbs+protein combined.

This is her second time having gastritis since being on the 4:1 ratio. Plus we didn't see a noteworthy improvement of seizure control when we raised the ratio from 3.5:1 to 4:1.

This this Monday little Miss Bug had an EEG. Which means we had to sleep deprive her the night before. They say for 2 year olds that she can only have 3 hours of sleep the night before and only in the middle of the night. The EEG was at 12:30 with check in at noon. It took 2 hours just to get her fully awake - it came to the point where we had to just strap her into her bath seat and shower her :( but it worked with very little traumatization. And we were able to keep her awake fairly easy and right around 11:30 she started acting very sleepy and then at noon while we were checking in she was falling asleep so we hurried upstairs and they showed us the room and she fell asleep within 2 minutes of laying down! The EEG techs were impressed!

They don't require you to sleep deprive the children for the sole purpose that they will sleep during the EEG. While they do require most of the test to be done during sleeping, sleep deprivation makes the neuro issues more apparent and more likely to occur during the EEG. When she's napping she doesn't normally have a seizure but because of the sleep deprivation she did have one for the EEG so they were able to capture that activity. We see her neuro Monday to get results and talk about the meds.

                                                          
Current medications she's on: Ketogenic Diet 4:1, Vimpat, 50mg 1 pill twice a day, Clobozam/Onfi 10mg, 1 pill 3 times a day, Lamictal, 25mg, 1/2 pill twice a day.

Seizure control: Bug is having 2-5 seizures a day, mostly over night during her sleep. Partial seizures, wakes up, tenses, labored breathing, sometimes twitches, then she goes back to sleep.

From Bad to Worse

Yesterday Bug had an EEG and followup doctor appointment with her neuro right after. The EEG went well and she slept at the right time to get a clear reading.

When we saw Dr. Coleman, her pediatric neurologist, he looked solemn and said that he had bad news.

He proceeded to tell  Michael and I that Bug's background has changed and is no longer normal. Instead, it is spiking even when she is not seizing and there is also some slowing in activity. And now the spike activity is happening on both hemispheres rather than just the right side like previous EEGs.

He said that this is noticeable with Infantile Spasms but that her seizures don't physical appear to be Infantile Spasms. Her neuro told us that she is experiencing spasm seizures. This is when she has her head drops and includes the seizures when she opens her eyes, makes wide arm movements and smacks her lips while blinking and opening eyes wide.

The treatment for these spasm seizures is to wean her off of Trileptal within the next 10 days because it does nothing for this seizure type. It is not hurting but it isn't helping. During that time we have increased her diet ratio from 3:1 to 3.5:1 (more fat and less carb). The Ketogenic Diet has shown great success is reducing spasm seizures for so many kids so we are focusing on getting her ketone levels really high again with more fat in the meals. Her ketones have been moderately high for the last few weeks but are only occasionally at their highest anymore.

We will give the 3.5:1 ratio 1 full week and if she is still having the spasm seizures we will go up to a 4:1 ratio (if her body is tolerating the diet, that is). And if she continues to have the spasms after 1 week on 4:1 then we will wean her off the diet and start a new treatment.

The new treatment options are this:

Sabril: Medical name is Vigabatrin. It is a short term medicine that Rayleigh would take every day for 2-3 months. It is specifically for spasms. Sabril can cause liver problems, irritability, sleep issues, and there is a more common effect of visual impairment. It is known to decrease her peripheral vision slightly. Like I said, she would take this medicine for 2-3 months (while continuing Clobazam) and then she would be weaned off the medicine and Clobazam would be the maintenance medicine. Supposedly whatever results she gains while on Sabril will remain when she is weaned off the medicine and stay on Clobazam.

ACTH: This is a steroid. It would a shot, that Michael and I would give her daily for 4-8 weeks. She would be on the steriod and Clobazam at the same time. It is similar to Sabril in that they are both short term but should produce long term results. The ACTH is known to significantly suppress the immune system so the neuro has already advised that if/when we go down this route that we should keep Bug in as much as possible during that time. The steroid also has side effects of causing high blood sugar levels, irritability, and sleep issues. The steroid requires a hospital stay to start so they can show us how to do the shots and monitor her levels to make sure that Bug's body is handling the steroid alright.

Rayleigh will have another EEG in 2 weeks if the spasms start to look controlled by the diet or 4 weeks if we need to start one of the treatment options.

Her neuro said that is completely up to Michael and I as to whether we'd prefer to try the medicine or the steroid start.

The worst part of this visit with the neuro was not this information though. The worst part, was that the neuro told us that Bug will always be developmentally delayed. There is an extremely high chance that she will never catch up. There is a slight possibility that she may still sit up, still talk and even may walk in her future. Chances of her talking before age 4 are very very slim and chances of her sitting or trying to walk won't improve until 5-8 years old. Michael and I were just devastated. Yesterday was a very hard day for both of us. The only thing that cheered us up all day was that Bug kept giggling. Like she was trying to tell Mommy & Daddy to be happy and that everything will be fine.

We are in a much better place with all of this today. I don't know why this happened to our baby girl but we will NEVER stop loving her and we do not love her any less than we did before. She is an amazing little girl and just a ball of love. Bug is a joy to be around.

Tomorrow is Christmas and we will focus on making this a wonderful holiday for our baby Bug. We will shower her with gifts from Santa to entertain her and hopefully help with her development and intrigue her to want to play!

Merry Christmas to all! May God bless your family during this holiday season :)

Better and Better

Rayleigh is doing terrific!!! I don't know what else to say about it!

She is 9 weeks seizure-free!!!

9 weeks in a row of no seizures! It's still unbelievable to Michael and me. She went from at least one seizure every single day to 9 weeks straight seizure-free!

I'm not going to lie, it's not like she's going through some overnight change and suddenly she's sitting, talking and all that. She's still behind developmentally but without the seizures making it worse she stands a really good chance of catching up. Now every physical therapy session sticks with her and she's making small improvements every day! The major thing we've been noticing this week is her vision improvement. She looks for me in a room and she has been making really good eye contact with those she knows!

We've been incorporating deli meats into the diet through the last week or so. She's eating it really well so I'll need to get in the Ketocalculator and create some more meats using various deli meats and carbs.

Last week, on Michael's birthday, we lowered her Trileptal by another half of a pill.

She went from:
1 pill of Clobazam 3x a day and
1 pill of Trilpetal morning and night, half pill Trileptal in afternoon

to:
1 pill of Clobazam 3x a day and
half pill Trileptal morning, full pill Trileptal at night

She's so much more awake and alert now that she's down in dose by 1 full Trileptal pill. And the best part is that she is still seizure free even after the 2 small reductions in Trileptal!! I hope for her sake that we can make it all the way to NO Trileptal and stay seizure free!

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A quick side-note story:
Rayleigh was prescribed Clobazam by Dr. Hernandez at Cook Children's Hospital one year ago. It was not FDA approved so we had to fill our prescription at a Canadian pharmacy and have it shipped to us. We had to pay full price for the medicine and about $6-$10 shipping depending on how many months worth of pills we bought at a time.

Well, Clobazam has now been FDA approved!!! We are very excited about this because now we can get it locally and it will be covered by insurance and more doctors will be able to prescribe it for their patients.

On the down-side, immediately after being FDA approved it is illegal to purchase it out of country. This wouldn't normally be a problem EXCEPT it's not yet available in the USA. They expect it to be available in a few months. This is a major issue because Rayleigh only has a month and a half left worth of pills now at the house. We called her neurologist last week and he is going to push through a prescription and contact the FDA at customs to get it to us when we need it. Hopefully this works or I have no idea what we'll be doing! We're working with her neuro on a plan B...

Clobazam

Friday, November 12, we woke up at home after a much-needed restful night's sleep. But the work was not over. Michael and I had forms to fill out and fax and people to call in order to get Rayleigh's Clobazam prescription filled out.

Clobazam is an anti-convulsant, seizure control medicine that is not approved in the USA. Because it is not approved here yet we are using Mark's Marine Pharmacy in Canada to receive the medicine. We have to pay every bit out of pocket because insurance doesn't cover any prescriptions for non-FDA approved medicines.

We had to get a written prescription from Dr. Hernandez (epileptologist at Cook's) along with a letter explaining why she needs the medicine signed by Dr. Hernandez. Both of these need to be faxed to Mark's Marine Pharmacy along with a form filled out by us and a letter signed by us stating that Dr. Hernandez has prescribed Clobazam as seizure control for Rayleigh.

After we fax all the information we have to call them and give them payment information. We chose to only order 1 month's supply this time. You can order up to 3 at a time to save on shipping costs. But, with us not knowing if it will work we decided to do one month first so if it doesn't work out we didn't waste extra money.

Each month's supply of Clobazam is $18.99 and shipping is $15.70 for 1-3 boxes/months supply. Money well spent if it controls the seizures.

Clobazam is a pill tablet that is intended to be swallowed whole for adults. For infants and small children you must crush the pill. It can be taken with or without food or water. 

Dr. Hernandez prescribed a weaning process onto the pill for higher tolerance. Her full dose prescription is 1 pill a day, given 1/2 pill twice a day. She is still to take 12ml Phenobarbital at night. The weaning for Clobazam goes as the following:

Week 1: 1/4 tablet at bedtime
Week 2: 1/2 tablet at bedtime
Week 2: 1/4 tablet in morning, 1/2 tablet at bedtime
Week 4+: 1/2 tablet in morning, 1/2 tablet at bedtime

We had to try several different methods of giving Bug her Clobazam before we figured out the best way she liked. This pill taste like the driest, most bitter aspirin ever :(

First, with just a 1/4 of the tablet we would crush it and put it on a spoonful of applesauce or rice cereal. That worked for the first 3 days then she starting catching on and spitting it out.

Next we tried to crush it super fine and mix it with Pedialyte. She took this fine the first night we tried but then spit it out completely the next night. We also tried formula one night but she wasn't having any of that either.

Once we were on the 1/2 tablet dose I tried to just crush it up and rub it dry onto her tongue and let her drink formula to wash it down. This kind of worked, she hated the process but at least she was getting all of it down this way.

Lastly, as suggested by Michael's grandmother, we crushed up the 1/2 tablet of Clobazam and mixed in a little bit of sugar and just rubbed it dry onto her tongue (or let her suck it off my finger if she liked the sugary taste) and then wash it down with a little squirt or 2 of Pedialyte or sugared water. She continues to take it this way now and seems to enjoy it best.

The good news with this Clobazam is that she has gone from 1-2 seizures each day to 1 seizure every 3-4 days! We have already ordered 2 more months worth. We really hope that this is the solution and that it's not just another "honeymoon phase" like when Phenobarb gave us 16 days seizure-free in a row.

We have to give the Clobazam another week before we see full results. Let's hope the seizures continue to dwindle away!

Keppra's Second Chance

The first medicine Rayleigh tried as an anti-convulsant to control her seizures was Keppra. This was when she was 6 weeks old. Keppra took her number of seizures down from 4-6 a day to 2-3 a day but never decreased the number from there, even with dose increases. After a few weeks on Keppra we added Zonegran. Zonegran is a capsule form medicine generally used to treat partial seizures in combination with other medications. Adding Zonegran didn't change anything so we stopped giving it to Rayleigh after 10 days and proceeded to Phenobarbital. While she was taking Phenobarb we weaned her off Keppra so she was taking just Phenobarb. She went seizure free for about 16 days and then had a breakthrough almost 2 months ago.

We have since been trying increased doses of Phenobarb, taking Phenobarb twice a day rather than just at night and then added Keppra twice a day. Adding the Keppra made no difference in her seizures. She continued to have 2 daily. Once at naptime and once at bedtime.

We were told by Dr. Coleman, her pediatric neurologist, to give the Keppra+Phenobarb combination 2 weeks to see results. During these weeks we noticed Rayleigh eating less and not taking her solid food well at all. At first, we attributed this to a cold she had been getting over but once the cold was out of her system and this eating issue continued we realized it was more likely a side effect of the Keppra.

The 2 weeks came and went and she was still having 2 seizures a day. No improvement with the Keppra+Phenobarb combination.

And So It Continues

Three weeks ago Rayleigh had a major breakthrough from her Phenobarbital medicine and began having seizures again. They started gradually, 1 seizure every 2 days or so and then got to where we are now at 2 a day.

The seizure will generally happen about 15-20 minutes into sleep. She usually has one for naptime and one at bedtime. Today was weird, she had one when waking up in the morning at 7:30a. She did not have one during naptime today but then had one when she went to bed at 9:30p.

A couple weeks ago on Saturday, Oct 2, we did as Dr. Coleman prescribed and started giving Rayleigh 12ml of Phenobarbital a day. We were to do 6ml morning and night. Each time you change the dose of Phenobarb you have to give it 5-7 days to take effect because it has a long half-life. After 5 days there was absolutely no change. We expected to at least see them slow down if not go away on this dose.

We called Dr. Coleman and spoke with him on the phone for quite a little while. He is ordering a new EEG to see if her brain activity has changed. If so, this will give him more information on the direction we should go in. The EEG is tomorrow.

Also, he had us up her dose to 14ml (7ml twice a day). This seems like a lot to us. We took Rayleigh to get her blood drawn today so Dr. Coleman can check the Phenobarb levels to make sure they are still within the normal 20-40 range.

Dr. Coleman had a couple of points of information that were a bit unsettling:

1.) The harder the seizures are to control, the more likely we are dealing with a longer prognosis of her having seizures.

2.) He has had patients where the best you can do with medicine will still have them having a few seizures a day. It sometimes comes to the point where the parents have to make the decision to either give her a higher dose of medicine than normal range and risk developmental side effects OR keep the dose normal and prevent most of the seizures but not all.

We had to stop by Dr. Coleman's office today to pick up the paper order for her bloodwork to take to the lab. While in there, Dr. Coleman talked to Michael quickly and said that even though she's still having a couple seizures a day and today is day 5 on this new dose he doesn't want to make any changes on her medicine until after the EEG and then he asked us to come to his office right after her EEG because he will immediately have the results and he'd like to go ahead and squeeze us in so we can go over them as quickly as possible.

We know that she's not conscious when she's seizing. For her it's like sleeping and waking up feeling weird, but it is so upsetting to watch this happen to your child and know that there isn't anything more you can do for them. Sometimes we think it scares her and then she's afraid to go back to sleep which is heartbreaking.

We always tell her, "I promise we are working with the doctor to get rid of these!" And we are. We just love her so much and hate that she's going through this. No child deserves this.

Epilepsy brings out a lot of emotions and very little answers.

Neuroligist Follow Up

Today Rayleigh had her 5 month follow up with Dr. Coleman, her pediatric neurologist. He pretty much just wants to see how she's developing, how she's doing on Phenobarb, answer any questions we may have, check her reflexes, make sure she's tracking and get her weight.

Yesterday, at 5a, Rayleigh woke up with a seizure. It was heartbreaking. More so than usual I think, because Michael and I were really hopeful that she was outgrowing them as Benign Neonatal Seizures (that are outgrown from 4-6 months old).

When we first arrive the nurse weighs her in at 13.9 lbs. Last month at her visit with Coleman she was 13 lbs, 2 weeks ago at her pediatrician's visit she was 13.5 lbs. Dr. Coleman said that he would like us to go ahead and bump her up to 10ml. 1.) Because she has had 2 seizures in the last 2 weeks, 2.) Because she has gained weight and 3.) Because her metabolism is become more efficient at digesting the medicine. He ordered blood work to check her current Phenobarb levels at 9ml since he thinks they might now be lower than the normal range.

Next, Dr. Coleman assessed her development. He watched her track a toy and make eye contact with him. He used a metal tuning device to make sure she follows sound. He held her to see her neck, back and leg strength. He felt her soft spot and flat spot on her head. He used a light to check in her eyes and mouth (got a kick out of her when she puckered up to the light and then tried to lick it!) and lastly he checked her reflexes. He said that everything he can tell is progressing perfectly normal but if we have any concerns we can contact SoonerCare and they will come to our house and spend an hour or so with Rayleigh and check her development for free. He said this to us because we were asking a lot of questions about her development for her age being on Phenobarb which is known to slow motor skills or mental development if the levels get too high. Luckily, this is why Dr. Coleman stays on top of her Phenobarb levels and doesn't just throw out a high number dosage that will stop them for sure.

We declined on the SoonerCare offer for now because we have joined OPAT and our "parent educator" will come by monthly to do the development assessment. But that's another post for another time.

We asked Dr. Coleman, "Since she had one yesterday morning and she's now 5 months old is it looking like she does NOT have Benign Neonatal Seizures?" His answer, "The chances of her having benign neonatal are smaller now that there's only a month left for her to grow out of them. BUT, I still think there is a big probability that they are benign seizures that she will grow out of during her infancy. Meaning, anytime from now until she's 1 year old. What I would like to do is keep her on the Phenobarbital to treat the seizures and watch her. If she goes 3-6 months without any seizure at all we can take her off the Phenobarb to see if she's outgrown them." So again, we are left with a waiting game.

Dr. Coleman said that he has only seen 3 or 4 patients that have had benign neonatal but has had several infants that grew out of their seizures within the first year.

One thing that kind of got Michael and I worried was hearing that some children that outgrow their seizures young CAN have seizures come back again, usually brought on by puberty. He said he couldn't really give us a percentage or anything because there haven't been enough studies on that fact yet. Course of action for that scenario is to treat the seizures with an anti-convulsant again. Then, those seizures may or may not be grown out of again.

Also, when Michael was holding Bug so that I could take notes Dr. Coleman was checking her reflexes and watching her take in her environment and he was just kind of thinking out loud while assessing and said, "I notice here that she seems to be clinching her fists. Does she do that often? How hard does she clench them?" I answered that she doesn't really clinch them tight at all and it doesn't really seem that often. It seemed like she was just doing it in his office because she was cold. And then Michael got a little bit freaked out and asked what that means that she's making a fist and what we need to do and all that. Dr. Coleman said, "I'm sorry, I wasn't saying that with the intention of worrying you two. I was just noting that her hands have been closed more today than normal. It can be a sign of slower development mentally. But I don't think that's the case here at all because she's not clenching tight at all. Normally it's an issue when they close their fists really tight and won't let you open them. With her, I can barely touch her hand and she opens them. Also, she opens her hand sporatically and babies with that issue do not open them on their own." So that eased my mind but Michael is watching her hands like a hawk.

So overall we got some new answers, whether we like them or not, like she probably doesn't have benign neonatal, most likely has some form of benign because all tests are normal, developing normally, stress from Wednesday night (teething AND gas) caused the seizure yesterday, and we'll hope that she goes seizure free from here on out so we can wean her off the Phenobarb in a few months.

Phenobarb levels. We take her over to the Main Lab in Baptist Integris. We've also had her blood drawn in the ER there and in a different DLO lab in Baptist but had bad experiences both places. We don't blame them though, babies have small veins! We go to the Main Lab because she's been there 3 times before and they always get her with the first stick and get enough quickly. Well, this time was a whole different story. Rayleigh was already tired, she wouldn't take her morning nap, she wanted to play with Dr. Coleman instead. We go in, Bug lays on the bed, I soothe her and Michael holds her legs. The two ladies begin looking for the best vein. I'll admit, Bug's vein were impossible today. They normally get the best out of her left inner elbow or right hand. They tried to find one on her left inner elbow but you couldn't see a thing. I see a little purple spot on her right inner elbow and point it out to them so we flip Bug around for them. Well the younger of the 2, obviously new, holds Bug's arm all funky so the older can band it near her shoulder and stick her. Well, she sticks the needle in super far and all the while Bug is screaming, then she begins wiggling the needle around for a while trying to hit the vein. She sees our faces and gets the needle out. She then goes for Bug's hand, pricks this small little vein, misses, wiggles, gets out. Flips Bug around, starts tapping Bug's other hand, rubbing, tying, folder her hand down, the works. She gets one tiny one to pop up pretty well and is about to stick the needle in but the younger one isn't holding Bug very well and she wiggles and got poked in the middle of her hand! The older lady gets the younger one to hold her better and then attempts AGAIN... misses, leaves the room hollering for another lady. This lady comes in with her needle, folds Bug's arm, pricks the vein in her hand and gets the blood so quick.

Bug has epilepsy. She has a higher chance of having a seizure after being stressed. This was very stressful on her. I'm worried. Hopefully we soothed her enough after (I fed her and Michael bounced her to sleep) that it won't affect her. In the end, they got the blood they needed so that we don't have to take Bug up there again tomorrow to get it. Let me just say this, it is not fun to watch your daughter get pricked with a needle. It is not fun to watch your daughter bleed. It is not fun for them to poke her 4 times and fail. It was a not-fun experience for all who were involved.

So right now all we can do is treat the seizures with the Phenobarbital and hope to never see another one ever.

She's a strong girl and we love her so very much. More every minute every day.

As of Lately...

There hasn't been a new post on this blog in over a week; that's because there hasn't been any new news to report. In Rayleigh's case, no news is good news! Rayleigh has been seizure-free since August 5th. Which equals out to be almost 2 weeks ago!!

We had a scare a few nights ago though. Rayleigh woke up from a nightmare making a horribly scary, but very short, squeal. When Rayleigh's seizures start she makes a similar squeal, locks up, eyes turn to the right side and then the twitching begins. None of that really happened at all, but she did open her eyes and stare for about 5 seconds and then she went back to sleep. I guess because Michael and I are on high-alert we are so worried about every little thing she does now. But it's so obvious that the Phenobarbital is working!

It's just awful having to give our sweet baby girl 9ml of medicine every night. She just doesn't like it. BUT, forcing the medicine upon her every night is soo much better than her having a seizure ever again! And she's gotten much better about taking her Phenobarb. My mom bought us this neat MedBottle. We had tried a couple different medicine dispensers for babies including a pacifier and and a small bottle one but neither really worked because the medicine would get caught around the rim. Well, the MedBottle that my mom got at Walgreens is so awesome because you put the syringe right into the bottle and you squirt the medicine directly into the nipple so you never have to mess with the rim or anything like that and she takes it better from the MedBottle each night!

So, yeah, no seizures in almost 2 weeks!! This Friday is going to be a busy day! Rayleigh has a Garden Party for OPAT, then she gets the rest of her 6wk shots since we're so behind, and then dinner with Lovie & GPa (Michael's parents). We will be so tired that night that we should all 3 sleep like babies! Pun intended.

Speaking of sleeping, Rayleigh has been co-sleeping all night the last few nights. She's in bed right next to me now. She would occasionally co-sleep with us after her 3a feeding so it's not that new to her but now it's all night. We decided to do it because she is outgrowing the bassinet that is next to our bed and I'm just not quite ready for her to sleep in her own room yet. I know, I'm a crazy mom. But especially being a breastfeeding mom, it's just so much easier to have her in bed with me already when she's ready to nurse. It's so much more than that though. It's just wonderful to have her there with us and for her to wake up and have us right there for her and she sleeps so much better and I could go on and on about what we love about co-sleeping! It's not like we're going to keep her in bed with us for years and years to come. Plus, she takes all her naps in her room. My good friend, Candace, was just telling me about some other great benefits of co-sleeping like the reduced risk of SIDS and that studies show that babies who co-slept with their parents are more likely to open up to their parents as teenagers! It's so cozy. She just sleeps on her back in between Michael and I.

In other news, our Bug has been eating jarred baby foods! We will introduce a new food and have her eat just that food for 3 days and then take a 2 day break before starting a new food. This helps identify any food allergies. If you switch foods, do a vegetable and then a fruit and then a vegetable, etc., it helps keeps the child from getting a preference on just wanting fruits or veggies. So far we have tried bananas, carrots and now we're on pears. She absolutely LOVES carrots!! It's so fun to see her reactions to all the different foods. She likes bananas but not when mixed with rice cereal and breastmilk. But she's the opposite with pears, she prefers them mixed.

We're just living our lives one day at a time enjoying each phase in her life :)

Here We Go Again

Rayleigh turned 4 months old on Monday, July 26th. This was also the date of her MRI. We were told to be there by 7a and that Rayleigh was not to eat or drink anything after midnight the night before the MRI. A friend of mine is going through nursing school and had just finished OB training and told me that, for infants, studies now show and places are now telling families that they are not to eat/drink within 2 hours of the MRI. We talked about this with my sister-in-law who said the only reason they suggest not eating/drinking is because it may make you sick when going under anesthesia. We cheated a little bit but not much. I woke her up and fed her around 1:30a. She is breastfed and so I knew it would be easily digested by the time of the test but she wouldn't be so hungry that we'd have issues. 

We woke up and arrived to OK Diagnostic Imaging around 6:45. Filled out paperwork and waited. They took Michael and I into a smaller, more private waiting room off the main waiting room and a nurse came to explain what all would be happening. Dr. Coleman ordered her MRI to be with or without contrast. This means, they'll take the images in standard gray, without contrast. If the MRI doctor needed to see her brain in more detail he would have the anethetist insert an IV to do the dye/contrast which would add color to the images. The nurse also explained that the anesthesia would be given in gas-form similar to how it is given at a dentist... she'll breathe it in and go to sleep. Then the anesthetist came back and took Rayleigh and asked us to wait in the room.

Michael and I tried to keep ourselves busy in the waiting room by talking, reading magazines and playing on our phones (haha) but nothing could keep us from realizing how close Rayleigh was (2 rooms down) but how we could not be with her. Every time someone would walk down the hallway we would both stop whatever we were doing to look and see if it was our bug.

Finally, the anesthetist comes into our room and tells us that the MRI is over and that Rayleigh did great and that he did not have to insert the IV for contrast because the MRI doctor got exactly what he needed without it. He told us that Rayleigh would be awake shortly and the nurse would be bringing her in to us. We were so relieved to hear that there were no complications and that Bug didn't need the IV... poor thing has been pricked enough with needles!

He brought Rayleigh in and handed her to me and said that she was still pretty much asleep and would be waking up soon. He said I could use the curtained off section of the room to feed her when she woke. The nurse explained that she would probably be pretty groggy throughout the entire day. Michael and I were very happy that we got to have Rayleigh with us before she woke up so that she didn't have to wake up in a strange room filled with strangers. She woke up about 2 minutes later and I took her back and fed her and we gave her her Keppra. She stayed awake only long enough to eat, take her medicine and get buckled in her seat and snapped into the car. Then she was back asleep. We figured she would be, she still smelled of anesthesia!

That day she had 2 seizures. Remember in the last post that she had gone an entire week seizure-free thanks to the Phenobarbital! Tuesday she had 1, Wednesday she had 2, Thursday she had 1 and Friday she had 1. Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday she had a seizure around 10:30p Thursday and Friday's were around 6:30a.

On Friday morning, July 30, we had an appt with Dr. Coleman, her pediatric neurologist. We were anxious to hear the results of the MRI. Michael and I figured the not-needing-contrast meant 1 of 2 things: her brain is so perfect that there isn't even the slightest issue OR the issue was so evident that they didn't need to see it in contrast. We came to the appt with a LIST of questions for Dr. Coleman. Most of the questions were from Michael and I, just general concerns and new developments but a few were from Michael's dad. George had had seizures caused from a concussion so he knows what Rayleigh is going through on a certain level that none of us can relate to. His seizures are controlled by an anti-convulsant that he takes daily and has been doing so for years. He said he remembers that after a seizure he would feel like he had just been hit by a car so he wanted us to ask Dr. Coleman if she was hurting afterward. So he wanted us to ask that along with a couple other questions.

Thankfully, Dr. Coleman did not keep us in suspense. He immediately told us the results of the MRI. NORMAL, CLEAN, PERFECT! YAY!! We were thrilled. Then we talked possibilities. He told us that given all her tests being normal and that she went a week seizure free while on Phenobarb that she could have Benign Infant Epilepsy. He said that there is just over a 50% chance that this is what we're dealing with. Benign Infant Seizures go away on their own between 4-6 months! There are several forms of benign seizures, he said that there is about a 70-80% chance that she has some form of benign seizures, but he is weighing heavily on Benign Infant Seizures. Benign seizures, which are grown out of, is obviously what we are now hoping and praying this is. But only time can tell. There is no test that can be done to find out what kind of epilepsy.

Dr. Coleman wants us to wean her off the Keppra, so starting that night we were to cut her dose in half. For 5 days she was to have .8ml twice daily and then the next 5 days would be .8ml at night and then no more Keppra, just Phenobarb. Today was her last day of taking Keppra in the morning so now 5 days of only taking Keppra at night with Phenobarb and then we will no longer have to give her the additional medicine. We also upped her dose of Phenobarbital to 8ml from 7ml nightly. 

Dr. Coleman said that it was a combination of Rayleigh gaining weight and having anesthesia that caused the breakthrough seizures. He suggested having her blood checked regularly to insure we have the proper levels of Phenobarb for her weight so that we can prevent breakthroughs in the future.

Now we are caught up on the blogging!! And I am proud to say that Rayleigh has gone 3 full days and counting since her last seizure :)   

Dr. Coleman

The day before we were to take Rayleigh in to see Dr. Coleman for the first time she had 5 seizures in one morning from 4a-9a. This was by far the most she had ever had. We were scared and worried so we took her to the ER. The ER pediatrician had them take some blood to run to see if they could find something in her system that was too high, too low or too irregular that may be causing the seizures. The blood work all came back normal so he had us do a CT Scan that day. The CT Scan also came back normal.

Rayleigh first met Dr. Coleman, pediatric neurologist, when she was 2 months old. Michael and I were nervous to hear what he had to say about Rayleigh and her "fits". At this time, no one had officially confirmed what they were although Michael and I were 99% sure we knew. Dr. Coleman came in and, immediately, Michael and I could tell we would get what we needed from him. Answers and solutions. We showed him the videos of her "fits" from my iPhone and he confirmed that they are definitely seizures and she has epilepsy right away. He examined Rayleigh to check her strength, reflexes and other motor skills and said that everything with her is right on track... except that she was a bit stronger than the average 2 month old baby!

He explained to us the possibilities, the what-ifs and could-bes of epilepsy in such a young baby. He said that the blood work done at the ER ruled out some causes like magnesium, certain vitamin deficiencies and things like that that could cause epilepsy. And the clean CT Scan rules out any large issues like a tumor or malformation. Having a normal EEG obviously doesn't mean that she's not having seizures, it just means that her brain is acting completely normal between the seizures.

Dr. Coleman said that based on all the tests so far coming back normal that he has high hopes that this is a form of epilepsy that she will "grow out of". Other possibilities are scar tissue in the brain, tiny-benign tumor, or genetic epilepsy. He ordered more blood work to be done to search for more specific vitamins, plasma and also ordered a urine sample to check her liver. 

That day he prescribed her Keppra. Keppra is an anti-convulsant medication, meaning it is designed to prevent seizures. We started her on .5ml twice a day for 5 days and then 1ml twice a day. Starting on half a dose for 5 days is supposed to help infants' body's accept the new medicine and keep it from acting as a depressant (which many anti-convulsants are).  

We left his office after asking several what-if questions and felt better assusured. Our biggest things were knowing that they don't hurt her (she might be sore but she'll let us know if she's hurting after by crying or becoming irritable after), Does she know she's having them? (No, she's not conscious so she feels like she's asleep and then may wake up slightly confused), Will the seizures cause brain damage in the short or long run? (No, neither, her seizures are far too short to cause any issues in the brain). Dr. Coleman wanted to get an MRI done on her to get a closer look at her brain to find anything that the CT Scan could have missed. Michael and I were not ready for this at 2 months because they have to put her under anethesia so we opted to wait 2 months. Dr. Coleman said this is absolutely not a problem and the only reason we would need to bump the MRI up would be if her seizures became much more frequent or severe.

So we went straight to the lab to get her blood drawn and urine taken for the tests Dr. Coleman ordered. After 10 days on the Keppra we were to call Dr. Coleman if she was still having seizures. She was, but the number had gone from 4-5 a day to 1. He had us up the dose to 1.3ml twice daily. He called a few days after that to let us know that all the tests he had done came back normal.

When our little bug was almost 2 1/2 months old she got a nasty little cough. She wasn't running a temperature or being more fussy than normal but after a couple days we decided to go back to Dr. Hanes, her pediatrician, and get it checked out. We say the P.A. and found out she had bronchiolitis. It is something that can go away on it's own but would take a few weeks to do so. The other option is to put her on a nebulizer for the medicine twice a day. So we did that, but then after a few days she bagan having her seizures 2-3 times a day again. We stopped giving her the medicine because her cough was already starting to fade and we assumed she'd rather cough than seize. We called Dr. Coleman and he said that anytime she is sick, stressed or over-tired she is more prone to have a seizure - even when on an anti-convulsant. That was very hard news for me. I had a meltdown that night. Thinking, "she'll never be able to have sleep-overs or play sports or anything because we'll never know if she's going to have a breakthrough and seize!" It is hard even now thinking that other kids will not think of Rayleigh as normal. 

Anyway, we upped the dose to the max level for her weight, 1.6ml twice daily and after a few days of no change we began giving her Zonagran also. We had a horrible experience with Zonagran. First of all, it is not available in a liquid form like Keppra. It is a powder capsule. We had to break the capsule open and mix it with breast milk and dispense it that way. The pharmacist told us "do as little breast milk as possible so that you don't have to give her much... babies are smart and will taste the difference no matter how much milk you try to drown it out with and that is just that much more milk you have to try and get her to drink". OK, so this Zonagran powder doesn't mix with breast milk worth crap, the powder just sinks to the bottom. So we dispense the milk in her mouth and then have to rub our finger to get the powder on it and then rub the powder-covered finger on her tongue. That makes ONE MAD BABY! After 2 weeks of the Zonagran with no results Dr. Coleman had us wean her off it. Thank God.

When Rayleigh was just over 3 months old we had another visit with Dr. Coleman. He checked her motor skills and everything and said that she's still right on track. He still did not give us the OK to get any of her 6 wk shots and her next round of shots were quickly approaching. He said he wanted to get these seizures under control first and find a medicine for her to be taking. She starting on Phenobarbital. I had read a lot of mom's giving Phenobarb to their children with seizures from the epilepsy blogs. We were curious to see how this next medicine would work. And boy did it work! We began with 5 days of 3.5ml at night and then moved up to the full dose of 7ml each night. After just a few days we started to notice that she was only having 1 seizure a day again! We were so excited that we were already seeing results from Phenobarb. And then something wonderful happened! Rayleigh went an entire week seizure free!!!