Whirlwind of 2 Weeks

Nope. No diagnosis results yet. Just filling my time until it arrives in the mail. I've literally been checking the mailbox several times a day. I even check it again once after I've collected the delivered mail just in case I missed it earlier or maybe a different mailman brought it later. Logically I know it's not the case but I can't help it, I want the results yesterday!

Anyway, last week was pretty bad and kept me on my toes. Rayleigh Bug had gastritis again. She was throwing up at least once a day and her burps smelled like acid. We saw her pediatrician and she told us to give Bug 2 Prevacid a day instead of just one for the rest of week to control the acids. This helped almost instantly but then over the weekend we tried to go back to just 1 Prevacid like she said and the acid burps came back and then last night a little spit up so we're doing 2 Prevacid today. I'm waiting to hear back from her dietitian to see if we can go down on her Ketogenic Diet ratio to 3.75:1 or 3.5:1. She is currently on the highest ratio of 4:1. For those of you not familiar with the diet, the ratio means 4 times the amount of fat over the amount of carbs+protein combined.

This is her second time having gastritis since being on the 4:1 ratio. Plus we didn't see a noteworthy improvement of seizure control when we raised the ratio from 3.5:1 to 4:1.

This this Monday little Miss Bug had an EEG. Which means we had to sleep deprive her the night before. They say for 2 year olds that she can only have 3 hours of sleep the night before and only in the middle of the night. The EEG was at 12:30 with check in at noon. It took 2 hours just to get her fully awake - it came to the point where we had to just strap her into her bath seat and shower her :( but it worked with very little traumatization. And we were able to keep her awake fairly easy and right around 11:30 she started acting very sleepy and then at noon while we were checking in she was falling asleep so we hurried upstairs and they showed us the room and she fell asleep within 2 minutes of laying down! The EEG techs were impressed!

They don't require you to sleep deprive the children for the sole purpose that they will sleep during the EEG. While they do require most of the test to be done during sleeping, sleep deprivation makes the neuro issues more apparent and more likely to occur during the EEG. When she's napping she doesn't normally have a seizure but because of the sleep deprivation she did have one for the EEG so they were able to capture that activity. We see her neuro Monday to get results and talk about the meds.

                                                          
Current medications she's on: Ketogenic Diet 4:1, Vimpat, 50mg 1 pill twice a day, Clobozam/Onfi 10mg, 1 pill 3 times a day, Lamictal, 25mg, 1/2 pill twice a day.

Seizure control: Bug is having 2-5 seizures a day, mostly over night during her sleep. Partial seizures, wakes up, tenses, labored breathing, sometimes twitches, then she goes back to sleep.

Early Infantile Epileptic Encephalopathy Test

Rayleigh's next test that is needed is called the Early Infantile Epileptic Encephalopathy (EIEE). This will test for these rare genetic disorders, each on 2 different levels: CDKL5, ARX, and STXBP1.

Information on this test provided by Athena Diagnostics Quick Guide:

The Early Infantile Epileptic Encephalopaties (EIEE), including Ohtahara Syndrome and early myoclonic epilepsy, are a group of severe epilepsy syndromes characterized by intractable early-onset seizures (generally in the first months of life) and a highly abnormal "burst-suppression" EEG pattern.

EIEE typically presents with treatment-resistant tonic spasms, focal seizures, and rarely, myoclonus. Over time, 40-60% of EIEE patients evolve to West syndrome, characterized by infantile spasms and a highly disorganized "hypsarrhythmia" EEG pattern. In general, many of these patients evolve to Lennox-Gastaut syndrome (often, but not always, between ages 3-6), which presents with mixed seizure types. Testing is indicated for individuals presenting with the above symptoms (tonic seizures, abnormal EEG, and myoclonus).

Reasons to test for EIEE:
Genetic testing can:

• Provide a confirmatory diagnosis
• Genetic testing for STXBP1, ARX, CDKL5 was rated "very useful" and "highly accurate in correct clinical context" by International League Against Epilepsy (ILAE) guidelines
• STXBP1 is mutated in 36% of patients with Ohtahara Syndrome.
• Provide important inheritance and genetic counseling implications
• ARX is an X-linked disorder that is seldom inherited, providing important inheritance implications
• Determine appropriate treatment options
• STXBP1-associated seizures in EIEE may respond better to Vigabatrin

This test is over $10,000. Insurance is willing to pay for some of the cost but we will still owe $2,100 ourselves. We are now on a mission to raise enough money so that Rayleigh can get tested as soon as possible.

Below is the link to a fundraiser I have set up to collect some of the costs needed, please share it with anyone who may be able to help Rayleigh Bug!

If that doesn't work, try this direct link to the Fundrazr: http://fnd.us/c/eKEyc

A Lot of Changes but Not Much has Changed

It has been a very long time since I have posted. So long in fact, that I now have a 2 year old!! Okay, so it's really only been a few weeks but, yes, I have a 2 year old Bug now!

Almost at the end of March we had fully weaned Bug off of Sabril. Her head drops picked back up but for a week that was really the only change we noticed - other than a few sleepness nights to go through! Then a week later we were driving home from the grocery store and I look back at Bug who got very quiet only to see that she was in a full on partial seizure. Body curled in, not moving an inch, face bright red and labored breathing. My heart sank and I immediately pulled into the first place on the side of the road, jumped out of the car and back to my Bug. It was over in about a minute but it sure did feel like an hour.

Her neurologist told us at her last visit that the next medicine she would start would be Vimpat as suggested by the pediatric epileptologist. He said that we would give it a bit of time after weaning the Sabril before starting it but if her seizures picked up or got worse to let him know and we'd start Vimpat earlier.

So as soon as I got Bug safe and home I called the neuro. His nurse put in a note for him to get us the prescription but he had already left the office for the day so it wouldn't be available until the next morning. That same night, she had a second partial seizure, not as long or severe as the one earlier in the day but still noteworthy so we called the on-call neuro and they sent over a "starter" prescription for Vimpat. They could only do this because the neuro put in his notes the dose he would like to start Bug at for the first week on Vimpat so that's all the prescription was for, 1 week of the 1/2 dose prescription. It was enough, the pharmacy was still open and it was in stock so we were able to start it that night.

That was the last partial seizure she's had. Got her up to her full prescription of Vimpat from her neuro a week after starting the medicine. We've got her ketones as high as they will go so that's helping with the drop seizures but she's still having a few clusters of 2-3 a day.

Then this week Bug has had a drop seizure that turns into a 20 second deal where she's smacking her lips and slightly rolling her eyes. Not sure if this is just a worse head drop seizure, something with her infantile spasms or maybe a small partial seizure. She has an EEG coming up on Friday that will give us a little clarification on that, follow up appointment with the neuro the following week.

Bug in her gait trainer (walker) in March, post to come :)

Who Knows What's Going On...

Friday's appointment with Bug's neuro was pretty routine. We discussed the new medicine, Sabril, that we are going to be starting soon. She will continue on the diet and the Clobazam while taking the Sabril. We also talked about Bug's vomiting and no bowel movement since Tuesday. He did confirm that Rayleigh is having Infantile Spasms. The Ketogenic Diet that Bug is on is a very successful treatment for Infantile Spasms. That is, when their ketones are at the highest and the child is in full ketosis.

That being said, if Bug isn't able to eat anything on this diet, or at least keep it down, then we won't even be able to give it a chance. Right now none of Bug's doctors (pediatrician, pediatric neuro, ER, dietitian or pediatric epileptologist) think it is the diet causing the vomiting. Michael and I do not think so either. And if it was the diet the vomiting would be better by now because she really hasn't eaten in 2 days.

We spoke with the on-call pediatric nurse at the Baptist Pediatric Group Saturday night and she said that it really sounds like a bowel obstruction based on the timing of the vomit - eat and then vomit 3-4 hours later. She said that that is how long it takes for the food to make its way down but if it gets a point and is blocked by stool it will come back up. She said that if Bug didn't have a bowel movement by the next morning to go ahead and take her to the ER so they could do a second x-ray to compare to her first one.

We ended up going to the ER Sunday morning. Bug was in good spirits, a little more calm than usual but not quite lethargic. The x-ray they did Sunday did not show any obstruction and the doctor diagnosed Bug with constipation and vomiting due to gastritis. The doctor said to keep her on fluids for 24 hours and do a suppository every 12 hours to help her pass the poop that is in her bowels. She had 2 small bowel movements that day and seemed to be feeling better after that!

Bug went all day Sunday vomit-free and was able to keep 1 snack down! But then she threw up during lunch yesterday. She did have a big poop Sunday night so we thought we might be close to the end of this ordeal. BUT, wrong again, she threw up a small amount during medicine that night. Pretty much just acid. We think she gagged herself this time because she's been using her tongue to block the medicine and it seemed like her tongue gagged her in the process :(

At that moment we decided we would be more strict about the 24 hour fluids only. So all day today she drank MIO flavored water and Powerade Zero (both Keto approved drinks). She didn't drink as much as we would have liked despite our frequent efforts but she never threw up so if she's up to it she'll have a sugar-free jello snack for breakfast with her vitamins.

Weird thing though, she hasn't had any of the bigger spasm seizures and we haven't noticed any of the smaller ones either in the last 3 days. Not sure what to make of that...

From Bad to Worse

Yesterday Bug had an EEG and followup doctor appointment with her neuro right after. The EEG went well and she slept at the right time to get a clear reading.

When we saw Dr. Coleman, her pediatric neurologist, he looked solemn and said that he had bad news.

He proceeded to tell  Michael and I that Bug's background has changed and is no longer normal. Instead, it is spiking even when she is not seizing and there is also some slowing in activity. And now the spike activity is happening on both hemispheres rather than just the right side like previous EEGs.

He said that this is noticeable with Infantile Spasms but that her seizures don't physical appear to be Infantile Spasms. Her neuro told us that she is experiencing spasm seizures. This is when she has her head drops and includes the seizures when she opens her eyes, makes wide arm movements and smacks her lips while blinking and opening eyes wide.

The treatment for these spasm seizures is to wean her off of Trileptal within the next 10 days because it does nothing for this seizure type. It is not hurting but it isn't helping. During that time we have increased her diet ratio from 3:1 to 3.5:1 (more fat and less carb). The Ketogenic Diet has shown great success is reducing spasm seizures for so many kids so we are focusing on getting her ketone levels really high again with more fat in the meals. Her ketones have been moderately high for the last few weeks but are only occasionally at their highest anymore.

We will give the 3.5:1 ratio 1 full week and if she is still having the spasm seizures we will go up to a 4:1 ratio (if her body is tolerating the diet, that is). And if she continues to have the spasms after 1 week on 4:1 then we will wean her off the diet and start a new treatment.

The new treatment options are this:

Sabril: Medical name is Vigabatrin. It is a short term medicine that Rayleigh would take every day for 2-3 months. It is specifically for spasms. Sabril can cause liver problems, irritability, sleep issues, and there is a more common effect of visual impairment. It is known to decrease her peripheral vision slightly. Like I said, she would take this medicine for 2-3 months (while continuing Clobazam) and then she would be weaned off the medicine and Clobazam would be the maintenance medicine. Supposedly whatever results she gains while on Sabril will remain when she is weaned off the medicine and stay on Clobazam.

ACTH: This is a steroid. It would a shot, that Michael and I would give her daily for 4-8 weeks. She would be on the steriod and Clobazam at the same time. It is similar to Sabril in that they are both short term but should produce long term results. The ACTH is known to significantly suppress the immune system so the neuro has already advised that if/when we go down this route that we should keep Bug in as much as possible during that time. The steroid also has side effects of causing high blood sugar levels, irritability, and sleep issues. The steroid requires a hospital stay to start so they can show us how to do the shots and monitor her levels to make sure that Bug's body is handling the steroid alright.

Rayleigh will have another EEG in 2 weeks if the spasms start to look controlled by the diet or 4 weeks if we need to start one of the treatment options.

Her neuro said that is completely up to Michael and I as to whether we'd prefer to try the medicine or the steroid start.

The worst part of this visit with the neuro was not this information though. The worst part, was that the neuro told us that Bug will always be developmentally delayed. There is an extremely high chance that she will never catch up. There is a slight possibility that she may still sit up, still talk and even may walk in her future. Chances of her talking before age 4 are very very slim and chances of her sitting or trying to walk won't improve until 5-8 years old. Michael and I were just devastated. Yesterday was a very hard day for both of us. The only thing that cheered us up all day was that Bug kept giggling. Like she was trying to tell Mommy & Daddy to be happy and that everything will be fine.

We are in a much better place with all of this today. I don't know why this happened to our baby girl but we will NEVER stop loving her and we do not love her any less than we did before. She is an amazing little girl and just a ball of love. Bug is a joy to be around.

Tomorrow is Christmas and we will focus on making this a wonderful holiday for our baby Bug. We will shower her with gifts from Santa to entertain her and hopefully help with her development and intrigue her to want to play!

Merry Christmas to all! May God bless your family during this holiday season :)

Sometimes You Don't Want Your Gut Feeling to Be True

As you can tell by the title of this post, I am not in the lightest of moods tonight. Bug had her checkup with the neuro today. We went in with 2 pages of questions to ask about Bug's behavior and things we've noticed. We got a lot of answers and here's pretty much the gist of it.

Rayleigh has nystagmus. It's an eye condition, not necessarily a brain condition. Simply put, nystagmus is when the eyes shake. In Rayleigh's case, her eyes only shake occasionally and not constantly. They shake side to side when she looks far to her left or right and I've also seen them rotate back and forth slightly when focusing. Her neuro said that based on what we know about Rayleigh and that she hasn't always had nystagmus that her condition was probably brought on by her seizure control medicines. Nystagmus as a result of seizure control medicine is most commonly attributed to Phenobarbital but can be a side effect of many seizure control medicines including Clobazam which Bug has been on for over a year now.

If Bug's nystagmus is a result of medication she will have the condition for as long as she is on the medication but on that same note, if it is the medicine causing the nystagmus then it will go away if/when she is off that medicine. We are making an appointment with Bug's neuro-opthomologist to find out more about nystagmus.

While we were talking with the neuro about this, Bug did her head drop. The neuro asked if this was the same type of head drop we had shown him on video back in October and we said yes. He then told us that it looked like a seizure and she did the head drop 2 more times in that 2 minute period. The neuro asked questions like when she does them (mostly when she's sleepy but also randomly rarely), how she reacts after a drop (like nothing happened, but sometimes a big head drop takes her a few seconds to recover and "come to") and then I told the neuro about this new thing that Rayleigh as been doing this week. When she's awake she will start smacking her lips, arms will go out slightly and then come back in and eyes blink.

He then confirmed (not 100% without EEG but pretty much) that we are describing myoclonic-astatic seizures.

The "head drops" are a drop seizure.

When she has the myoclonic-astatic seizure followed by a small head drop in the way that Bug does it is similar to last year when she would have a partial seizure that was followed by myoclonic jerks.

So what we thought was 12 weeks of seizure freedom was really just 12 weeks of partial onset seizure freedom.

There are 2 types of medicine that Rayleigh has not tried before that are used to control myoclonic-astatic seizures: Lamictal and Depakote. It could cause more seizures if we start one of these new medicines along with her existing medicines while on the diet. Plus, these both seem to have nasty side effects that are increased in children under 2 years old. But we know what's next to take if we have to get there.

The current plan is this: We have already increased her dose of Trileptal back up to 1/2 pill morning and 1 full pill at night along with the 1 pill of Clobazam 3 times a day. We can go up higher on the Trileptal if we need to. We will also be upping the ratio on her diet which has shown a lot of success in many cases.

The neuro says that there are several explanations for why Bug's seizures went from ONLY happening during sleep to completing changing form and happening awake. The most likely reason being that her brain is maturing as she grows older. The least likely reason being the diet.

The only good thing to take away from knowing that these have been seizures is that they do not physically hurt her or affect her mood. I do still believe that they are hindering her development though :(

The neuro is ordering an EEG with an immediate visit with him right after it's done to discuss results so I'll repost after that. It should be within the next 2 weeks. Until then, we will love our Bug just the same and enjoy Christmas with her!

So Many Thoughts

It's the Christmas season once again. Such a beautiful time of year here in Oklahoma! I love the cool crisp air outside and the giving feeling and the bright lights on the houses at night! I'm hoping Bug is enjoying it as much as me. This weekend we're taking her to the light shows around town, that was one of her favorite activities last year! They're easy for her to see and the Christmas music you tune to in the car is upbeat and she sits on my lap while Michael drives through the park :)

This Christmas we feel like we've already received a gift that is better than anything Santa could bring down the chimney - Rayleigh is 12 weeks seizure free!!

We've also been weaning her Trileptal down by 1/2 pill every 4 weeks so we are currently down to 1/2 pill twice a day! She has so much more energy now! I knew we'd see some good things after getting medicine out of her system but I had no idea how drastic her energy level would change!

While those things are really really awesome I have to say that going into Bug's neuro appt tomorrow Michael and I have a ton of questions! Bug is still doing her head drops that her neuro previously told us he doesn't believe they are seizure activity but because she's still doing them occasionally when she's sleepy I want to know more about them.

She's also recently started waking up startled about 10 minutes after falling asleep. What I mean is, she falls asleep and everything is calm and fine and then she pops her eyes open and looks straight up and arms slightly go out for about 2 seconds and then she relaxes, looks around and sucks on her pacifier and then goes back to sleep shortly after.

I'm also pretty concerned that her development isn't improving any faster than it was before seizure freedom.

I just feel sometimes like as soon as we figure something out a whole new issue feels our mind.

I'll repost soon after her visit with the neuro Thursday.